I apologize for these short letters that I keep sending. Last week we did not have much time and this week I also wrote a letter to Cami (thanks for the reminder mom, it had been a while). I wrote Cami today in the train, I have been trying to find time wherever I can to write some people, because we never have any time in the piso to write anyone. So I will send that letter off tomorrow and Mike, her counselor, already wrote back saying he got it and will give it to her. So that´s great!
Sounds like the ward conference went well. I loved the insight on the parable of the ten virgins. I am sure that that will come in handy some time.
I have spoken in church 2 times in the past 3 weeks. Both times on the topic of missionary work, a classic topic as a missionary. I am realizing that I need to do more to study the language. I am understandable and can talk to anyone and understand almost everything, but my grammar and vocabulary aren´t the best. I really need to crank down on the hour of study that I have every day and just make the most of it.
Lately I have been realizing the obvious, how weak I am. I set goals every weak and it is so hard to do them. In theory, being a perfect missionary is easy, you just do it. But when it comes to diligent action every minute of the day, it is soooo hard. I am not depressed or anything, but I am just realizing that I lack a lot from being the missionary I hope to be at the end of the mission.
I am also realizing that to be a great missionary, you have to have the ability that no man is born with, and every women thrives on, that is, the ability to multi-task. I just can´t do it. I just have to get in the habit of moving fast every day so that I can not waste one single minute that is needed to do something. In the morning I have to hurry and exercise, get ready, eat and start studying. Medio Día I have to eat and study Spanish for 30 minutes, and when we get home, we have to plan and then hit the sack. There is no time to do the area book, clean my desk, or write in my journal. The journal isn´t something required but it is something that I want to do and have after I am done.
These are just examples of things that regular time doesn´t allow, but are needed to be done, during other times of the day. Also known as the need to multi-task. I am trying to do this and am getting better but still am far away from where I should be. It is a process just like everything else in life, and I am glad for the opportunity to focus on the most important things right now and hopefully form some habits that will benefit my life forever. The hard part about the process is that it is very slow. But it works and the Lord will make me into the instrument He wants me to be if I let Him, and observe to do according to all the law and turn not from it to the right hand or to the left, in other words be strictly obedient in all things.
The blessing are waiting and I just have to do it all. It is hard that I can´t just focus on one thing as a missionary, because all the things that I have to do are important and I have to do them all, or the area suffers, people don´t progress, or I am not happy. I just have to put my shoulder to the wheel, forget myself, and carry on. You can be assured that I shall do my duty and do my best out here. I love the work and surely there is nothing betting than representing Jesus Christ and proclaiming His gospel on a full time basis.
Thank you for your love, thought, and prayers. They are much appreciated.
Love,
Elder Driggs.
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